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DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-85568776314522528072023-04-04T11:48:00.000-05:002023-04-07T11:58:01.128-05:00<p> ❤️Did you know that we ALWAYS have a choice? In the past 48 hours, even after 31 1/2 years of marriage… we continue to grow! Together we’re continually learning how to accept the new challenges, </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj8X-_P_qluFAHRHw_PJq_4rcdI7tq1vyiVJe82GNuM8BkDL_7ECzqMvaZXX-qbkzYSmoHPJQ2gK_OVeIQS6AQUxzfOf7TEdeb6M_PKngQSpvGm1G13hLCGza5TOdMvVOPBIdEfgGpIOmnzm5hoqphWft-G6OXxS7bpngt4auAHMEMj18dvomyLyzsHkQ/s600/338009882_772108434101766_7601284159643447971_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="600" data-original-width="518" height="188" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj8X-_P_qluFAHRHw_PJq_4rcdI7tq1vyiVJe82GNuM8BkDL_7ECzqMvaZXX-qbkzYSmoHPJQ2gK_OVeIQS6AQUxzfOf7TEdeb6M_PKngQSpvGm1G13hLCGza5TOdMvVOPBIdEfgGpIOmnzm5hoqphWft-G6OXxS7bpngt4auAHMEMj18dvomyLyzsHkQ/w162-h188/338009882_772108434101766_7601284159643447971_n.jpg" width="162" /></a></div><br />and handle the disabling changes that we have no control over. It’s been a tough season for me both physically and emotionally, and now that Jimmy has physical limitations too😭, fear has often tried to grip my heart. <p></p><p>😢I’ve found myself tired of asking for prayers, sounding like a broken record, and the pain often so intense that I just want to go HOME… Though I’m so thankful to report that my fentanyl increase helped bring me better pain control again. </p><p>Jimmy is still having much of the same pain even after surgery, not sure if it helped yet or not. </p><p>I’m frustrated that I can’t change our circumstances. But one thing remains: our faith… And OUR love. Even if we lost everything, and are living in a tent together, with his arms wrapped around me, filled with unconditional love, that, mixed with unwavering faith, will forever be all we need!💕</p><p>Faith walk</p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-45284750672806016042023-04-03T11:56:00.000-05:002023-04-07T11:57:17.257-05:00<p> 💯Crazy times. The reality of “death” brushing so close has loomed over our heads since my heart got sick in 2007. Jimmy & I changed the way we live our lives, treating everyday as if it’s could be our last. </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhJpC2vSRS4x7miGQOtboJKdFZMCIy7PKmCyruyWn7L0Qwpl3Xi4CnPE8dODGjcOIBYXpuVmvOp6fUscy9tYK_Z6zC-yrbG0qRsxD04qBlBn9E40hmR_I7MxnrdUItk6WoX4CJadwUxQsPO0EdmBPBwmU0mu0y3O8bHTqfcz703JwsP6rJKENOJEKUyAg/s701/339417759_192462003556365_9085386176712068498_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="701" data-original-width="526" height="208" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhJpC2vSRS4x7miGQOtboJKdFZMCIy7PKmCyruyWn7L0Qwpl3Xi4CnPE8dODGjcOIBYXpuVmvOp6fUscy9tYK_Z6zC-yrbG0qRsxD04qBlBn9E40hmR_I7MxnrdUItk6WoX4CJadwUxQsPO0EdmBPBwmU0mu0y3O8bHTqfcz703JwsP6rJKENOJEKUyAg/w156-h208/339417759_192462003556365_9085386176712068498_n.jpg" width="156" /></a></div><br />That reality & strong possibility has given us “more” memory making moments than we’d have normally chose to rencountered. <p></p><p>Now... 16 years later & on hospice, we still live with that constant possibility so “real”…It’s a reminder to make each day count. </p><p>My life was turned upside-down in the blink-of-an-eye.</p><p>🌻When you go about your day today, if you’re facing uncertainties... pause for a moment & remember one thing remains certain,- God’s LOVE. If you have peace of where you’re headed when you breathe your last breath, nothing can steal your peace. I love you my family & friends!</p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-77405431044602975472023-03-31T11:53:00.000-05:002023-04-07T11:54:54.970-05:00<p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjTOY9-YmIxSHcG6Awj3pR3qA76z9hC68lwMM6HQqTHkzcdBKHp4dnGl_grW_S5FNZcyMbF163UCcGX079eTGAA2v5YlD_86n494STbnUUlMI2iDLxaStg7Fqec89dN9P5PrDu_m0OVA6eUAtWLrdujSGIkeExay9mZVqm04vsswQ7Zegc6i3JirTGGCA/s1076/Screenshot%202023-04-07%20at%2011.53.52%20AM.png" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="594" data-original-width="1076" height="177" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjTOY9-YmIxSHcG6Awj3pR3qA76z9hC68lwMM6HQqTHkzcdBKHp4dnGl_grW_S5FNZcyMbF163UCcGX079eTGAA2v5YlD_86n494STbnUUlMI2iDLxaStg7Fqec89dN9P5PrDu_m0OVA6eUAtWLrdujSGIkeExay9mZVqm04vsswQ7Zegc6i3JirTGGCA/s320/Screenshot%202023-04-07%20at%2011.53.52%20AM.png" width="320" /></a></div><br />❤️Heart update. I had a very rough day. My pacemaker Cardiologist appt. was today. I’m 100% pacemaker dependent, and my battery life dropped over this past year from having 6.5yrs to only 2.5 years left. My battery life is draining quicker than I expected. At this rate, I’d need a new one quicker. At my appt., they adjusted the settings to help save battery life & adjust my rate response but my heart got very angry and was skipping beats and throwing extra beats all over the place. It’s still angry tonight after they readjusted all the settings back to their original settings. Prayers appreciated that the heart will calm back to my baseline so I can at least function again. I still have no underlying heartbeat, so I’m 100% living on this machine. Here’s a quick peek at my heart rate jumping all over while paced when I was sitting, top right corner. I’m exausted tonight, and a little extra discouraged. <p></p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-3825512775220407172023-03-30T11:50:00.001-05:002023-04-07T11:52:39.522-05:00<p>☀️Long Post Update: </p><p>❤️Today on National Doctors’ Day, as we say thank you to all the incredible doctors who are working diligently around the clock to keep us healthy… I would like to especially thank Dr Rogers from San Diego for giving me my life back. He took me under his care in 2011, when I couldn’t even walk across a parking lot without nearly fainting. After traveling the country, told I had 6 months to live, & when no one else could find a cure, he & Dr Gibson from Scripps Clinic took a chance on me... and because of that I’m here today. After my 1st 6 heart surgeries in a 12 month period… with a complete heart block, 100% </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgtsaImBt4GZBnvnf5LiBHN2A8XlkOfZNLYB24dS-vyr9K7HfvopvOuQOklQPDYXpvaCAjbasf25UVIwnauB9OR9RQoQ695h_MAnMIi3P45zzKahN2uHWoyfeGZDnuJudX8c8lL8sQfrw6wThEE_iVp8ml8gbrO-FVIAo6fHzj9z0IEA85KsTh6plQYmQ/s1162/Screenshot%202023-04-07%20at%2011.51.24%20AM.png" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1162" data-original-width="1156" height="201" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgtsaImBt4GZBnvnf5LiBHN2A8XlkOfZNLYB24dS-vyr9K7HfvopvOuQOklQPDYXpvaCAjbasf25UVIwnauB9OR9RQoQ695h_MAnMIi3P45zzKahN2uHWoyfeGZDnuJudX8c8lL8sQfrw6wThEE_iVp8ml8gbrO-FVIAo6fHzj9z0IEA85KsTh6plQYmQ/w199-h201/Screenshot%202023-04-07%20at%2011.51.24%20AM.png" width="199" /></a></div><br />dependent on a specialized 3 lead pacemaker, my hope was restored. <p></p><p>Now, between my San Diego surgeries, my most recent pacemaker lead extractions/replacements done here in Austin, & a total of 6 pacemaker changes, (approx 50 hours of heart surgeries later).... I’ve lived long enough to have gained 5 adorable grandchildren, Jimmy & I’ve built a zillion irreplaceable new memories with family & friends. I look forward to many more memory-making moments! I’m thankful for a Dr who cares about the “person,” & not just the “plan.” Dr Rogers, & Dr Gibson, thank you for believing there was “more life” left in me...thank you for taking a chance on me. </p><p>Also thankful for Dr Canby in Austin for extracting my 2 fractured leads , & thank you Dr Bassiouny for stepping in to do my surgery again the next day when one of the leads decided to pop out, followed by mor ablations to help the PVC’s, skipping beats. I’m so thankful for Lauren the pacemaker specialist that helped to find the problem. My rib cage & insides were violently shaking with every heartbeat. Lauren found that the lead moved & was resting on my diaphragm, causing it to beat with my heart, & impossible to take a full breath in. It was a very long 17+hours.</p><p>Thank you to Dr Jacobs & Dr Jaafar for my hospice care, helping get better control of my pain these past 9 months. Thanks for your dedication to my wellness. And to all the rest of the countless doctors who have assisted to give me the best quality of life possible, today I say “THANK YOU.”❤️</p><p>Also, here I stand almost 4 years after having my entire colon removed. My surgeon said it would take about a YEAR to fully find my new normal. Things have stretched & fought hard to find their new home, but I think I missed the year mark😢. My before & after pictures are shown here, where I looked 6 months pregnant from my paralyzed colon. My belly button didn’t even look human. I told him I think he improved my belly button, no extra charge, ha!😁 I could never imagine that surgery complication would lead me to my hospice journey, now fighting daily to survive the pain. Pictures remind us of how far we’ve come. I’m reposting a visual/photo here from that 2.5 month timeframe. You can physically see & mentally imagine the anguish I was in, having my intestines inhumanly paralyzed & expanding to make me look 6 months pregnant. I had lost 25lbs in that 10 weeks, but mostly because I’m not storing up a weeks worth of food in my intestines. Fruits & veggies/ fiber could kill me… crazy I know but it’s true. It’s an up & down recovery, so I embrace the ups, & pray through the lows. This has been the hardest 45 months yet. My pain hasn’t ended. I’m on hospice pain management regimens to help take the edge off. Looking back at these pictures help remind me of how far I’ve come physically. I was suffering then, and I am suffering still… It’s just different levels of suffering. My rare autonomic dysfunction disease can affect any system at any time.... and there is no cure.</p><p> This journey WILL continue to make my faith stronger because I’ve seen the lowest of lows & my only hope is relying on God’s strength. I’m ready to see the view from the mountaintop. I know it’ll be beautiful. 🧐</p><p>🙏🏼Seeing this visual reminder, triggered memories of the anguish I’ve gone through for the last 4 years. Seeing & feeling even where I am now, even through multiple complication, I’m trusting God to complete the work in a miraculous way!☀️🙏🏼🏝💯 There’s so many doctors who have been patient with me, trying hard to give me quality of life over these past several years… Today I want to say thank you! </p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-51853548197338538422023-03-28T11:48:00.000-05:002023-04-07T11:48:59.708-05:00<p>RAW…😔Hospice… is it just a word? Or is it a guaranteed pain relief remedy after admitting you’re irreversibly sick? Is it acknowledging that there is no cure, and the pain is intolerable…? Humans find ways to help their dogs journey home with dignity and make them most comfortable, but humans?? We have a long ways to go… 😢There should be no shame in talking about death. Death is a part of life. </p><p>☀️Some just live longer, healthier, & happier, while others live shorter, sicker, but are truly stronger in the midst of it all… this is my desire! Nowhere in my story will it say I quit. I’ve lived every single page to its fullest! I’ve given until there’s nothing left to give. I realize I’m not in charge of the ending, but I know who it is. My faith is unwavering, but my flesh is real. My pain is real. And feeling helpless and finding relief is real. I just wish it didn’t hurt so much… And I wish I was at the beach with my husband. Hand-in-hand.. 🌴👫Never alone…. Faithwalk </p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-1342994861744203892023-03-20T11:44:00.000-05:002023-04-07T11:45:23.357-05:00<p> Thank you for those who’ve reached out and asked about Mia…. Here’s a long over-due update. A week before Jimmy’s surgery, Mia found a new home filled with lots of furry brothers & sisters to play with, and a wonderful new mommy & daddy. Thank you Karen & Tom Clement for your BIG hearts….thank </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjHcz18ZI0JTI2UHAyvFvsWqzfGp5hmY26ag9PPIJLVc6Om6xFTdgy95A0-kRib6pe1NzjhrleW7HK0OeAiogqwX0p1M9J04tb47bOk_umyxxH7uy9-x-gU7YBf6YSa5R7iC_c602am8bCI3-Hm2E2f7TscnQpXnutAe8RT-98QdeJ5FbZcsmj10vxdsQ/s600/336906545_226363539918447_2159866382503744583_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="511" data-original-width="600" height="190" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjHcz18ZI0JTI2UHAyvFvsWqzfGp5hmY26ag9PPIJLVc6Om6xFTdgy95A0-kRib6pe1NzjhrleW7HK0OeAiogqwX0p1M9J04tb47bOk_umyxxH7uy9-x-gU7YBf6YSa5R7iC_c602am8bCI3-Hm2E2f7TscnQpXnutAe8RT-98QdeJ5FbZcsmj10vxdsQ/w223-h190/336906545_226363539918447_2159866382503744583_n.jpg" width="223" /></a></div><br />you for helping us to give Mia a good home in the midst of our challenging time. Though our hearts are still terribly sad, (Jimmy had more tears than me in this pic) it was the right decision for Jimmy & I. It was too much commitment for me on hospice, & Jimmy with chronic spinal issues, surgeries & recoveries. Though our hearts are big enough to love her deeply, our bodies are too fragile at this time. 😢I know she made us smile a lot & gave us purpose & a reason to wake each day… but our own health must come first… so a month ago we made that very tough decision. It’s time to let ya’ll know (since many are asking) that Mia is doing well in her new home, with her wonderful loving family. Our hearts are still very empty, missing what we had for so many years with Riley & Cooper. Wishing there was a simpler answer, maybe a grown-up fur-baby to love someday. Timing is everything… and right now we had to face our reality, no matter how hard it hurts.❤️<p></p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-42321633321833009322023-03-19T11:42:00.004-05:002023-04-07T11:43:53.558-05:00<p> 💕I miss our special BEACH moments🌴... They remind me that in spite of EVERYTHING, we must have an attitude of gratitude! I can’t wait until one day we see the shoreline again. Dreaming….I may never be the same, but Jimmy, as sure as the sun still shines & sets daily, and the waves keep crashing the shoreline, my 31+ years of love remains. Something good comes from each season, when we face them </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhT6IrOTDAUFVVt76expEaUo2zjNhnloGZsvfqv8U_luQHC3aDaIZ12u_L2bgBp6sSFWPaFlwR-I7ly2QmhOm28-RTT7ahCrKgdLjUXuxIfPK4zQ-BeZVs4b3r975n5CIejiS-L2ub01eU8TnlePTl9mp2gGKxNw-2o7Jg3iN9cJjDsKXkmKDSJZ4xZ0A/s585/337047693_736685814756750_874524532079342701_n-2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="585" data-original-width="526" height="97" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhT6IrOTDAUFVVt76expEaUo2zjNhnloGZsvfqv8U_luQHC3aDaIZ12u_L2bgBp6sSFWPaFlwR-I7ly2QmhOm28-RTT7ahCrKgdLjUXuxIfPK4zQ-BeZVs4b3r975n5CIejiS-L2ub01eU8TnlePTl9mp2gGKxNw-2o7Jg3iN9cJjDsKXkmKDSJZ4xZ0A/w87-h97/337047693_736685814756750_874524532079342701_n-2.jpg" width="87" /></a></div><br />face them with a “heart of LOVE.” <p></p><p>🤒Through sickness we recognize the value of health. </p><p>🤺Through evil, the value of good. </p><p>😭Through loneliness, the value of being loved. 🍴Through hunger, the value of food. </p><p>🏃♀️Through exertion, the value of rest.</p><p>💵Through financial need,the value of provision. </p><p>😔Through sadness, the value of laughter. </p><p>😥Through stress, the value of peace. </p><p>😭Through brokenness, the value of faith. </p><p>💔Through hurts, the power of forgiveness. </p><p>🪦Through death, the value of life. </p><p>Moments matter. Memories last forever.❤️</p><p>👫🏝🛫☀️Make TIME for moments, and make EVERY moment count!</p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-2981521932999674032023-03-07T11:40:00.004-06:002023-04-07T11:41:20.136-05:00<p> ❤️Trusting God for miracles, always. He never fails! Some days you may have the strength to run. Other</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj348ClIn0dVYzlm5Db55E2c1uqafeyyTWee62h8wAcTakwt7daB16dJuTt8jwy95JOG2WHPc9GrErIO--YyfoaXGVFqE5up43SGn83e3sp55IfNg2av6ikX53k1B1OVKfisk3AouAIvuIVerBhDkEurO-ykijFFYq1ORoqEibwlZKcTTl1oV3beENrUw/s694/334564309_703775091440744_7733763848633941202_n-2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="694" data-original-width="526" height="158" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj348ClIn0dVYzlm5Db55E2c1uqafeyyTWee62h8wAcTakwt7daB16dJuTt8jwy95JOG2WHPc9GrErIO--YyfoaXGVFqE5up43SGn83e3sp55IfNg2av6ikX53k1B1OVKfisk3AouAIvuIVerBhDkEurO-ykijFFYq1ORoqEibwlZKcTTl1oV3beENrUw/w120-h158/334564309_703775091440744_7733763848633941202_n-2.jpg" width="120" /></a></div><br /> days, just to walk. If you can't walk, then crawl. If you can't crawl, then kneel. If you can't kneel, then lay resting... but never, ever stop breathing & believing. Unstoppable determination! There are miracles happening all around us. Today IS a miracle. A few years ago I couldn't walk across a parking lot without nearly fainting. Today, I recognize every step of this journey has been a reminder of "where my help comes from." This week, I encountered a few days with severe chest pain episodes, heart vasospasms from my small vessel disease. They required many nitro & liquid morphine doses. Felt like the life was being crushed out of my heart. Then last night, I had severe nausea hit hard. Each episode left me feeling helpless, as the ER is not an option. There’s no cure. Only an opportunity for a miracle. That’s what I got, miracles… since I’m still awake this morning! <p></p><p>🙏🏼Jimmy continues to recover well from surgery, alongside my suffering. He is a champ! The neck brace keeps him feeling more stable, & it’s with him for 3 more weeks. His steroid treatment ends today. Evenings and sleeping are the hardest times for him… but he’s recovering day by day. </p><p>Are you struggling with an impossible situation too? Keep your faith, one day at a time! When you look back, you'll see God is holding your heart in his hand too. </p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-56986917744308063062023-03-04T11:38:00.000-06:002023-04-07T11:39:32.302-05:00<p> Those who leave everything in God’s hands, will eventually see God’s hands in everything!!🤗</p><p>❤️So much love has been pouring in from all over the country as we continue to walk our faith journey day by day… Jimmy and I truly feel the prayers, love, and support. It’s true, the little things in life can often leave a big impact! Thank you for even the smallest gestures. It reminds me of a quote I heard years ago… “Anyone can count the number of seeds in an apple, but only God can count all the apples in one seed.” Be planting seeds wherever you go. Only GOD knows the number of lives you’re really reaching!</p><p>As I lay here in the bed for an afternoon nap next to my recovering man, I reflect once again on God's faithfulness. </p><p>😇He is there when the sun rises, ☀the rain falls, ⛈the moon shines,🌝 & our eyes close. 😴He sees it all! He is my strength. Day by day I remember, I have the greatest helpmate- God. The greatest soul mate Jimmy, the greatest supporters - my family & friends. Life is best lived when those you love walk it with you.</p><p>❤️Live Loving</p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-65188126981408557142023-03-01T11:37:00.000-06:002023-04-07T11:38:35.115-05:00<p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjJASM6r1r_7guABYq5Nos73Z7Tl_Bm4dewZLpZjiBmXVcPTQDDfy7LwmsRHI7sQmcqCygQT4OFN8B-WnxlHl75r8dHFrDVfLsqlwiJVSDddrgjW5q3LTOhgfB0PfM1x5vqxxJGVgGacbWZ75rmrSuCFcJfU0yiCUR-6K2xVlrDeVaajKOECyzFh8RC3A/s600/331429620_140172732296058_2214908352046617499_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="600" data-original-width="450" height="155" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjJASM6r1r_7guABYq5Nos73Z7Tl_Bm4dewZLpZjiBmXVcPTQDDfy7LwmsRHI7sQmcqCygQT4OFN8B-WnxlHl75r8dHFrDVfLsqlwiJVSDddrgjW5q3LTOhgfB0PfM1x5vqxxJGVgGacbWZ75rmrSuCFcJfU0yiCUR-6K2xVlrDeVaajKOECyzFh8RC3A/w116-h155/331429620_140172732296058_2214908352046617499_n.jpg" width="116" /></a></div> HOME! Thank you everyone for pouring your love all over Jimmy & I. You know who you are!! <p></p><p>Even though we are here in San Antonio alone… We sure don’t feel alone! We love you all so much! <br />Jimmy is feeling good, sore, he didn’t like me hitting the bumps on the way home, though! He’s waiting for his meds to get filled at the pharmacy. I slept a good 15 hours last night… Catching up on my rest! Feels so good to be back in our own home. Life is fragile… Handle with prayer!</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiQiEciW0pm6xY0yeaJkqhsOhbgsKfArdp3GgFPZo_ILa6v1l9SZGeweY5eLKJXguPGk4anUpUZUGPjJcCxjN1xcnyD-irVIoTKkr8mG8tM9q4sXtNM84Vu3JzFWV_IccyWgqx6ZIohB4T-6CnbstwNxiAml18cMbZBw-iw1ul6kvFFT15R0ZNZkP2TaA/s600/333557549_712158180645491_4460846950958601047_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="600" data-original-width="450" height="159" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiQiEciW0pm6xY0yeaJkqhsOhbgsKfArdp3GgFPZo_ILa6v1l9SZGeweY5eLKJXguPGk4anUpUZUGPjJcCxjN1xcnyD-irVIoTKkr8mG8tM9q4sXtNM84Vu3JzFWV_IccyWgqx6ZIohB4T-6CnbstwNxiAml18cMbZBw-iw1ul6kvFFT15R0ZNZkP2TaA/w119-h159/333557549_712158180645491_4460846950958601047_n.jpg" width="119" /></a></div><br /><p></p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-82121585635786655832023-02-27T11:33:00.001-06:002023-04-07T11:35:33.107-05:00<p> He’s out of surgery! Surgeon said all went as planned. I’m waiting for him to leave recovery and will meet him in his room within the hour. 🙏🏼😊 THANK YOU for prayers answered!!!</p><p>It’s 9:30 at night… And I finally just now got to see this sweet guy! He is still in recovery, they’re still</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj7Nkx9Uvaxfsc7-OaXCZjwerKMqbhrNsNyVlHlGB2lyZii5-iNocF2wFqteJaeie7CgpGYwkeiw2yDSMP-nylNXL3a1DQDKtUdIw6Uk2APLF0uYvhhpxXq1S0rr7Ukgtg6Royy4_NJa40MzHb4-gNneS-SB_YIvvA7skDukQ77kH4nfv9XIlYjDtjGTg/s701/333565229_1262759954320141_6046362320720924847_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="701" data-original-width="526" height="144" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj7Nkx9Uvaxfsc7-OaXCZjwerKMqbhrNsNyVlHlGB2lyZii5-iNocF2wFqteJaeie7CgpGYwkeiw2yDSMP-nylNXL3a1DQDKtUdIw6Uk2APLF0uYvhhpxXq1S0rr7Ukgtg6Royy4_NJa40MzHb4-gNneS-SB_YIvvA7skDukQ77kH4nfv9XIlYjDtjGTg/w108-h144/333565229_1262759954320141_6046362320720924847_n.jpg" width="108" /></a></div><br /> waiting to get his room. He needed a special Neuro-surgery room. They even had to transport patients to another hospital to make room for him. Lol! It was a long day of waiting. Everything went well, he is feeling sore but good! Thank you for the prayers, please pray that he will have a thorough, speedy healing! He’s my rock. My feet are swollen, I had to go home and change shoes… I am definitely not used to being up this long! My pain is pretty intense too… No, I’m not the one in the bed. Today is all about this guy! I love him dearly. <p></p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-73369855935012615332023-02-27T11:30:00.000-06:002023-04-07T11:33:30.786-05:00<p> Surgery is beginning now! Thank you for all the love, prayers, and support. Thank you for all the kind </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgmmUmoVRtzbYOQXtRc2SJ98lI4iN4mvSwmIVrFviAh085J8H1rsiai_oOQM5Qx-GPjvVgCI8CwFJiq6L66wxVhgwHFQkqk3qGiaWtklx5Gbv9pn4xWfpE20AlpnqkN084pvkBcIxqIj6a2lNUJ0omGDZmR-d7jIZLpi061_3QA23rLR1EJQBJncwpGfg/s600/331613610_610273207567757_4917061261461608441_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="600" data-original-width="450" height="129" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgmmUmoVRtzbYOQXtRc2SJ98lI4iN4mvSwmIVrFviAh085J8H1rsiai_oOQM5Qx-GPjvVgCI8CwFJiq6L66wxVhgwHFQkqk3qGiaWtklx5Gbv9pn4xWfpE20AlpnqkN084pvkBcIxqIj6a2lNUJ0omGDZmR-d7jIZLpi061_3QA23rLR1EJQBJncwpGfg/w97-h129/331613610_610273207567757_4917061261461608441_n.jpg" width="97" /></a></div><br />words…<p></p><p>I will update once I know some thing. They will be monitoring by putting needles throughout his scalp and his neck area during the surgery. They are going through the front of his neck, move his throat, he will be having a disc removed, and a cadaver disc and plate placed. That is all I know so far… let the wait begin!</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgOMQgDdrdi8SGXApMmP0C30LqqNtDNJdWVo4pUbuPXxZnCwzfMBNi3MSHqG0jeBqXGDgg5a8RDjeJB25rlpJcEmhlK4kmSkji1lPH0Aa0L4zULRPUzik8sKr3tnC4Cz8E7NE7E7FcZg5kMqcnfGz7JjvpTx-6XC907klg3CU2F83D2u9cIS9x4fLlOyw/s600/331488986_899378641303820_2384540950281848882_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="600" data-original-width="450" height="160" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgOMQgDdrdi8SGXApMmP0C30LqqNtDNJdWVo4pUbuPXxZnCwzfMBNi3MSHqG0jeBqXGDgg5a8RDjeJB25rlpJcEmhlK4kmSkji1lPH0Aa0L4zULRPUzik8sKr3tnC4Cz8E7NE7E7FcZg5kMqcnfGz7JjvpTx-6XC907klg3CU2F83D2u9cIS9x4fLlOyw/w120-h160/331488986_899378641303820_2384540950281848882_n.jpg" width="120" /></a></div><br /><p></p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-27074689384945645422023-02-24T11:27:00.004-06:002023-04-07T11:29:00.867-05:00<p> ❤️Yes, it’s my mechanical heart with many wires. WOW… 12 years ago today 2/24/11, I had my very 1st of 9 heart surgeries. I was in surgery for 7 hours that day. As I reflect back to 12 years ago, the struggle was intense. I couldn't walk across a parking lot without nearly fainting. And the kicker was, 💔we knew even before leaving the recovery room that day, that heart surgery #2 would be coming soon....and on & on they went. It's often on these "anniversary moments" that we take time to reflect. I have come so far. 🌻Many of you have been with us every step of the way! Others have joined us along the journey… And though many days I still have mountains of physical challenges to overcome, I’m so blessed to be alive, celebrating life. </p><p>☀️There is good in EVERY DAY. So many miracles over the years! Most answers to our prayers haven’t</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjfqKKScCCxJj4Efz06IMEZNhGJQ0hJEMSl-bFhD1ETTcKEvTPT2lV6q45BlilmCvOOB59D1LJZLX1zWOOw2dnOF7U1R0YYtnRqvxysYazFBMIbhek9e7sg-FiVIXVbvQo5ZuqoxomprDjodXshqnD3_iqr_JHkJAmwGBIZZvlKrpAfGrpLvJtduqYdWg/s940/332834699_750333873212959_2184062142935134598_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="540" data-original-width="940" height="77" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjfqKKScCCxJj4Efz06IMEZNhGJQ0hJEMSl-bFhD1ETTcKEvTPT2lV6q45BlilmCvOOB59D1LJZLX1zWOOw2dnOF7U1R0YYtnRqvxysYazFBMIbhek9e7sg-FiVIXVbvQo5ZuqoxomprDjodXshqnD3_iqr_JHkJAmwGBIZZvlKrpAfGrpLvJtduqYdWg/w134-h77/332834699_750333873212959_2184062142935134598_n.jpg" width="134" /></a></div><br /> looked like we thought they would, but they’ve been perfectly how God has planned them out. He’s sustained me through so much over these years. Many stories I have yet to tell, but predominately between my heart flatlining 12 years ago, leaving me 100% depending on a specialized pacemaker designed for heart failure patients, coupled with my paralyzed motility system, ongoing complications and immeasurable pain from having my total colon removed 3 1/2 years ago…. all of the ups and downs, it’s a heavy burden to bear, yet He’s there. <p></p><p>✍🏼As chapter after chapter of my life has been written, God‘s goodness has been intertwined through it all! The one thing that’s remained steady, is the faith that Jimmy and I have in God. He’s here with us even now. With so many unknowns ahead of us, (including Jimmy’s major spinal repair coming up this Monday,) looking back to when I was given 6 months to live, BUT I’m still here… That my friend is a miracle! So as I lay my head on the pillow tonight, once again, I thank God for the miracle of “TODAY.” Don’t lose hope for a better tomorrow, we pray for strength and God‘s will be done! </p><p>❓What’s going on in your life? What monumental moment do you need to reflect on tonight to reassure yourself that you are not alone either? I don’t repeat my story over and over just to stay stuck in the story (I’m still living “in” it)… But if I can help one more person to get unstuck, I’ll keep repeating it over and over till my heart stops beating. 🙏🏼🙌🏻Looking back is good, as long as it’s used to propel you forward! There is a purpose for your life, don't ever quit. God is so good!!🙏🏼❤️🤗🙌🏻</p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-34960168845806537272023-02-23T11:26:00.001-06:002023-04-07T11:26:49.109-05:00<p> ❤️Big Update…. Jimmy’s spinal surgery was moved up to THIS COMING MONDAY! 2/27. Prayers appreciated. He will be hospitalized for a day or 2 minimum, since he is having a bigger procedure done.  i’m not used to being on this other side of the bed… This is all new for us! </p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-66230211147085240412023-02-22T11:25:00.000-06:002023-04-07T11:25:48.297-05:00<p> 🥲Never judge by "what you see..." Looking young & heathy doesn’t equate to healthy. These words have “broke” me a few times. I strongly dislike not being able to overcome. I'm used to being able to put on the happy face😄, fill my heart with faith & keep going!</p><p>Not anymore. I can truly say I know what it feels like to be slowly dying. But thank God I can also say I know what it feels like to truly LIVE! I’ve spent the last several years in decline, overcoming a multitude of health battles… BUT it’s also given Jimmy & I MORE opportunities than most, to choose to live every moment like it's going to be our last. 🎁GIFTS of memories being made. 🤨Truly, I don't even climb into bed at night without having matching jammies on, (LOL) just in case it happens to be the night the ambulance arrives at my house. We've learned to make a joke here or there, coping skills. That & our constant STRONG faith in God, TRUSTING HIS plan is always in motion, His will be done. But my friends, as I share my “ OPEN BOOK LIFE” .. between Jimmy & I, It’s definitely an eventful season. That's why we continue to thank you all for lifting us in prayer. Those "good moments" that we get to celebrate, are gifts from God & answered prayers. Praising God for healing and continued provision. Please don't stop praying, I know it’s only by God’s hand upon our lives, that I’m still standing today. THANK YOU! The testimony is in the truth, & the journey is full of miracles. As we are nearing yet another surgery… this time on Jimmy, I’m leaning into God even closer, not complaining but regaining hope!</p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-39152021729579694612023-02-21T11:23:00.000-06:002023-04-07T11:24:56.594-05:00<p> It’s getting “Real.” We’re at Jimmy’s pre-op appointment for his ACDF Surgery of C5-C6. They will be going through the front of his neck, moving his throat/esophagus aside, and removing a disc… then </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcOYpyrDL8uX3elsbNsDMsQowQwp73oyQHOZRW0cj78BRoAl8tOy01SZnA8jFsEs2Ai6OsRIJ-FMK3JOHPcf7UUuhSdvnZ2aam7qdUkXpScb3eHuJG5oJeqfAhu7n2YUVg6W9a7OC05v9581zcz40erdjFl4HPT2YCZPw4SIfZK75276VPuhZI0TGqSw/s600/332576010_1649073745522672_2456198921175258853_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="533" data-original-width="600" height="159" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcOYpyrDL8uX3elsbNsDMsQowQwp73oyQHOZRW0cj78BRoAl8tOy01SZnA8jFsEs2Ai6OsRIJ-FMK3JOHPcf7UUuhSdvnZ2aam7qdUkXpScb3eHuJG5oJeqfAhu7n2YUVg6W9a7OC05v9581zcz40erdjFl4HPT2YCZPw4SIfZK75276VPuhZI0TGqSw/w179-h159/332576010_1649073745522672_2456198921175258853_n.jpg" width="179" /></a></div><br />inserting a cadaver disc in its place. He’s a little worried now that it coming up. Has anyone else had success with this? We’ve only heard all the horror stories. Trusting God. This is only the 1st layer of a few that will need done. I’m not the morning person… I slept most of yesterday, and my pain is greater than usual. I am used to having my strong man by my side… It’s hard to see things changing. Aging stinks! <p></p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-62325053550661104052023-02-20T11:23:00.000-06:002023-04-07T11:23:27.314-05:00<p> The struggle is real. I was deathly ill for hours last evening… nausea took me down. Yesterday was tough. But one thing I’ve learned is, whether or not God diverts your struggle does not determine whether or not He is God. And if proof of how God feels about you might appear concealed today, the same love that spoke through the cross over 2,000 years ago, is still the same love that covers you today. #liveloved</p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-55573971950535727502023-02-19T11:22:00.000-06:002023-04-07T11:22:36.895-05:00<p> Things feel more real when you have oxygen in the house… I had returned the oxygen hospice brought out, but after my last heart episodes, they requested that I have it back in the home. So here it is. I don’t like feeling like one step at a time my life is growing shorter. Thank God I have far outlived my six months to live mark a long time ago… And my days are numbered by God! Jimmy and I are doing our best to make the most of each one of them! One day at a time…  with his upcoming surgery, fear keeps trying to creep into my soul, but I know we will make it. Everything will be OK! God has never let us down yet! Sometimes we just have to daily reminder ourselves of what we’ve already walked through and know that God is with us today as well.  Being human means our feelings are real. And having faith makes the impossible possible.</p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-16781605502257642342023-02-03T11:19:00.000-06:002023-04-07T11:19:41.813-05:00<p>😔Breathe in, breathe out. I say this humbly... I would never wish for someone to have to go through the levels of pain and suffering I’ve been forced to endure in this lifetime ... especially over the last few years. I’ve almost not known a day without pain, though hospice has brought better pain control. Bad things happen to good people. I may never understand why. As I scroll through so many negative posts, I have a tiny little wish that for just a moment, most were given the opportunity I’ve been given... one where you have to look death in the face & REALIZE all you may have left is the moment right in front of you. All that matters is today. It’s a gift to truly see the VALUE of a moment! When you live so close to life & death challenges, the things we worry about, argue about,lack forgiveness for, waste time over… They wouldn’t matter. When you realize life is short, perspectives change. I’m having a difficult time thinking of Jimmy’s surgery season coming up. This is going to be a very challenging couple of months ahead for Jimmy and I… Usually we get to take turns being the strong one for each other, but this will be different. We’re both weak and need to be strong together. It’s going to take creative teamwork. I have faith, but I’m human. I’ve had a good morning for a few hours, a little relief... following a very challenging night. One breath at a time, one day at a time, this is how we’re living. Trusting God for healing, provision, peace, understanding, and strength. I’m so very thankful for love…❤️ One day... our story will end. We strive to finish strong. </p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-45882642373023107532023-02-02T11:18:00.000-06:002023-04-07T11:18:46.532-05:00<p> 😭TRUE, oh so true!! Today, I’m strong enough to admit that I’m NOT feeling strong enough. I’m weary. My intestines are on fire! My heart was spasming…. I don’t even have the strength to verbalize details, there are so many things beyond our comprehension. And having my man weak is magnifying my challenges even more. I don’t know what I’ll do when he’s down recovering for 2+ months after his surgery. Definitely a new season for us. When one is down, he can pull the other up… But when both are down, it takes a special type of teamwork to make it through even the little details. As we look toward heaven this evening, Jimmy and I continue to place our unknown future into the hands of an all knowing God… We are reminded that on some days, All we truly have left to us to cling to is God. But there is peace in that because EVERY DAY, all we truly NEED is God. It’s not over until every last breath is gone… purpose through the pain.</p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-29201579222083340062023-02-01T11:17:00.000-06:002023-04-07T11:17:48.810-05:00<p> I came across this quote that says, “Remember, growing older shouldn’t be taken for granted, it’s a privilege denied to many.” SO GOOD!!</p><p>❤️Most of you know, 16.5 years ago I was given 6 months to live… I have been through 9 heart surgeries & fought many other crazy health battles including having my entire colon removed, and a total 50+ surgeries. I thought I would never live to meet even one grand child, and now I have 5!! I feel weary at times, fighting the fight… but because of my hubby, my family, and God’s plan for my life, I will continue! Please remember to live full of love & forgive quickly, not just for you… but it’s what’s best for all! Life’s too short to live with regrets.</p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-14050041666727333402023-01-30T11:14:00.000-06:002023-04-07T11:15:30.262-05:00<p> Today is a good day! Why? Because I woke up this morning with breath in my lungs. The breath in my lungs gave wind to my vocal cords, which enabled me to use my voice to praise my Creator, & encourage those around me. I woke with 2 hands able to be used to do daily tasks with my whole heart. I woke with a heart that does not beat without complete reliant of a machine, but it LOVES with an unconditional love. It cares with an indescribable compassion. Yes today is a good day!</p><p>I have to say, not everything within this day has stayed in tune with how I think it should all go, but I do know… God has been with me. </p><p>My intestines have been flaired with more pain the past 48 hours. </p><p>Jimmy had another cervical MRI last week, and tomorrow he sees the neurosurgeon again to discuss options. But as we await pain relief & next steps, we’ve not stopped living life, and enjoying precious moments via FaceTime with the family, and every day is a new adventure with Mia. We are overcomers. We aren’t giving in. We will continue to live out out dreams & destiny, with our WHOLE HEARTS, until our day of rest is handed to us.</p><p>So many people hear a bad report, hit a bump in the road, get dealt a bad rap, and give up. We believe God wants to see us THROUGH these challenges! He will never leave us. I pray that someone today, will be encouraged to keep going. Don’t let the reports direct you, you direct the reports 🙂. Today can be a good day for you too!</p><p>I will update once we receive Jimmy’s MRI results & surgical options. And I’ll continue to increase my pain meds as needed to allow for comfort care, while clinging to faith for a better day. </p><p>"It is good to proclaim your unfailing love in the morning, your faithfulness in the evening. You thrill me, Lord, with all you have done for me! I sing for joy because of what you have done." Psalms 92:2, 4</p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-49050664727723475112023-01-25T11:10:00.001-06:002023-04-07T11:14:04.141-05:00<p>❤️MIRACLE MOMENT-tears:❤️ </p><p>(long but soooo good😭)</p><p>💥 BOOM, It happened again!! </p><p>We were just informed that once again someone committing to assist with our housing expenses for the next 12 months!</p><p>🙏🏼Remember last year, when I was heading into my 9th heart surgery, & we had a miracle moment in our lives? 😭When my beautiful friend and prior business partner from my Real Estate days informed us that her and the amazing company she’s a Regional Manager at, PAID our rent this past year 2022 in full! And they’re doing it again for 2023!!</p><p>WOW… This propels us to continue to have BOLD faith as we continue to face many “unknowns”. GOD’s AT WORK!! We have peace that God is already paving a way for us to face the medical expenses still yet ahead of us with Jimmy’s cervical surgery/surgeries. He’s been out of work for a year now, but God has sustained us!!!</p><p>This is only January… but y’all have been watching the battle we’ve been in… It’s at a peak! Between his spinal disease, and my intestinal paralysis, heart failure etc.… I thank God for my hospice care, bringing much better pain relief. Jimmy & I both need a physical miracle, every day is a challenge, but right now we are witnessing another provisional miracle!!! This reinforces our faith, reminding us God is already ahead of us! </p><p>❤️ Trina Rose- Brown is passionate about helping others in so many ways, well beyond her career! And the amazing company she works for Movement Mortgage, have tremendous hearts to meet needs & change lives all over the world as well! They’re a funnel of God’s provision beyond any comprehension… and Jimmy and I are humbly blessed recipients of God‘s infinite provision. THANK YOU!!!❤️🤗😭🌻🙏🏼</p><p>Friends I share this as a true testimony of when you follow God‘s plan for your life, no matter how rough the waters, HOLD-ON. He is already everything you need.</p><p>Remember, you never know why God brings the people into your life that He does, when He does, or how He does… and only He knows what fruit those connections may produce years later, but what we do know is, God‘s timing is always perfect! No moment, circumstance, challenge, relationship, connection, trial, or victory is wasted!</p><p>🙌🏻We pray God‘s blessing over Trina, Movement Mortgage, AND the MANY anonymous others who </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjRUzCYkGlt1OC-rMyy7y7U3vUWdaY9ieoLjckQlRdJlbW1THNuPiDRE6YInHsX25tUP2n1eaJbBKuDlwU7hUJ0fVCkufjrbf_t7CjHrZ6bUjXIxDTN-aS0uRjszARl4USQkngpzwQKMOz6sOu4U3baohe0dJnIdZvOGZYXIqw_pCKRK24k4FRHoKp6qA/s526/323715798_1614725115627409_2665329829602814886_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="526" data-original-width="526" height="187" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjRUzCYkGlt1OC-rMyy7y7U3vUWdaY9ieoLjckQlRdJlbW1THNuPiDRE6YInHsX25tUP2n1eaJbBKuDlwU7hUJ0fVCkufjrbf_t7CjHrZ6bUjXIxDTN-aS0uRjszARl4USQkngpzwQKMOz6sOu4U3baohe0dJnIdZvOGZYXIqw_pCKRK24k4FRHoKp6qA/w187-h187/323715798_1614725115627409_2665329829602814886_n.jpg" width="187" /></a></div><br />have lifted Jimmy and I up in prayer, spiritually, financially, & emotionally throughout this LONG season! YOU know who you are. Thank you for being a reminder once again that God still has us right in the palm of His hands! <p></p><p>☀️As we continue to place our faith in Him, He has endless resources. He’s been faithful in showing us there are MANY willing vessel‘s who are out there to help those who continue to trust God, even when unexpectedly stuck in a moment where we’re living by faith alone!!! He didn’t promise an easy life, He just promised He’d walk it with us. Thank you for keeping our faith alive!</p><p>“Overflowing with gratitude today.” Keep doing what you’re doing… We’re lives that have been changed! THANK YOU❤️</p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5339801111634733547.post-54995466869946103752023-01-21T11:07:00.000-06:002023-04-07T11:09:53.853-05:00<p>❤️So much to be thankful for! One year ago today, I had my 9th heart surgery. I have officially gone 1 year without any ADDITIONAL surgeries!!! I think that may be a record breaker, and something to give a tremendous shout out about!! Thank you all for your continued prayers for Jimmy and I through this</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEifJRdwIMYlnZHyJ5bcu0-jsJt7tl3juRW41dqww4WweRD1Yk3hcOfZwuBDmz3qw9R6_vKpCLXdPw8JDpOFdExRjfJWdOOhMzFaxQHZCf8jWScSMmAGknOXfxVcVllK3fR627PxTGWM7nfOtY1u5mJwzJKEV7PGIOtdi3Cnn-cymT2ocEk3e6vugPV8ew/s526/323459870_1580300502472136_6963613768766886465_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="526" data-original-width="526" height="143" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEifJRdwIMYlnZHyJ5bcu0-jsJt7tl3juRW41dqww4WweRD1Yk3hcOfZwuBDmz3qw9R6_vKpCLXdPw8JDpOFdExRjfJWdOOhMzFaxQHZCf8jWScSMmAGknOXfxVcVllK3fR627PxTGWM7nfOtY1u5mJwzJKEV7PGIOtdi3Cnn-cymT2ocEk3e6vugPV8ew/w143-h143/323459870_1580300502472136_6963613768766886465_n.jpg" width="143" /></a></div><br /> season. It seems as though this season has lasted a lifetime… It kind of has, lol. We wouldn’t be where we are today without the faith and the prayers of those of you who have surrounded us with love, encouragement, provision, & faith. Today we are feeling very thankful and blessed! Jimmy says thank you for not making him sleep on a hospital cot for the past year. I think the longest he spent on a hospital cot beside my bed at one time was 5 weeks. But combined time probably over a year! He’s such a trooper. This evening we have so much to be thankful for, as we still fight through the battle, we continue one day at a time! God is good!! ❤️🌻 <p></p>DebbieMulidorehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05004794786409313556noreply@blogger.com0